In over our heads ........

Yep - that would describe how I'm feeling right about now :). I forget how something so tiny can be so completely wonderful, yet exhausting at the same time! I had forgotten how you have to decide between sleep, food, or a shower - and oh, the laundry - how does one tiny little being add so much more to your laundry. The past 4 weeks have been a blur and I still can't believe this little guy has been here for 4 weeks already. Andrew is doing well - he is well loved!! He is a fairly calm baby - spits terribly!!, but overall - so, so sweet. I don't get very much done while the kids are at school because I just want to sit and snuggle - I look at Addie and Ryan and get a quick reminder how very fast these days are going to go! My blood pressure has continued to be an issue, but I am finally beginning to wean from some of the meds I'm on. I think once I am off of all of those I might begin to feel like a human being again - they all cause drowsiness and dizziness - just what you need when you are already sleep deprived - I just feel dazed most of the time right now. Addie and Ryan are doing okay - they are definitely having some adjustment issues, but I think it is all pretty much normal - I think it will help when their momma isn't so out of it as well. I am so ready to be back to being their momma - I miss all of that. Rob - well, he's had his hands full the past couple of months being full time dad and mom and then taking care of me at the same time. He's done a great job and managed to keep his sanity. My mom has taken good care of us also - between the two of them, I think we have managed very well. They both tell me that they are going on bedrest as soon as I'm back to myself - they deserve it!!

I can't believe it is already Thanksgiving - I missed the entire month of October. We have much to be thankful for - we can't forget that we spent our last Thanksgiving at Vanderbilt Children's Hospital for Ryan's LAST chemo - in some ways it seems like yesterday, in others - it seems like an entire lifetime has passed. We are thankful not to be doing that this year - our hearts and prayers are always, always with the families who are currently in this battle and for those who will have an empty chair at their table this Thanksgiving.

I'm thankful for 3 incredible children, a wonderful husband, our parents who continue to sacrifice so much for us - I can't imagine getting through all that we have been through without them!! We are thankful for each of you as well. We so appreciate your continued love and prayers - we are grateful for all the baby gifts, gift cards, meals that we have been blessed with. I am working on thank you cards and they will get in the mail one of these days ( I actually would try and work on them when I was on bedrest and Rob would make me stop and take my blood pressure - sure enough - just sitting up doing that would make it go up - so, he would make me stop :) - I grumbled at him lots, but he did take really good care of me) - until then, know how much your love and support mean to us during this time.

Hope you all have the very best Thanksgiving!!!! Praise Him for the gift of LIFE - hug and kiss your babies and never take for granted that they are with you ...........