No MRI results yet, I knew it would be a weekend of waiting ....... Ryan did fine with sedation, he did cry with the IV but did EXACTLY what he was asked to do by the nurses. He said it did hurt - felt like a bee sting or something and that he would rather have the port ...... not complaining .... just matter of fact. Overall, I think he did really well - they got it with the first stick which I was sooo thankful for. This go around has been harder because for the first time ever Ryan has had lots of questions ....... we were laying in bed on Thursday night saying our prayers ..... thanking God for our friends Jackson and Matthew having good "pictures" ...... in the middle of all of that, Ryan said, "mommy - what if I don't get good pictures, what if that stupid tumor decides to march right back into my head" ....... I felt physically sick and really struggled with how to answer that. I told him that many, many were praying for him and that we were believing and trusting God to keep the cancer away. On the way home after the MRI he asked me if his pictures were good ...... told him we didn't know yet but I was believing they were just perfect. I knew the time would come when he would one day "get it" as to why we do these MRI's, but I was hoping it would be a long ways off ..... it just makes it harder I think ..... my sweet little 6 year old shouldn't have to think about this kind of stuff .... it makes me angry I have to admit that this is a part of his life. Pray for peace for him and for God to give me the right answers to questions like these ...... I am definitely NOT ready for this. Ryan is an incredibly smart little guy (much smarter than his momma :)) ..... so I always want to be truthful with him, but at the same time I want his spirit to be at peace and for him to not have to worry about all of this. Addie did great even though she didn't want to be there (I know there are plenty of you who would have kept her but I didn't wouldn't to have to deal with Ryan's upset of it not being fair that he was going to the hospital and she was going to play) ...... we were sitting in the cafeteria and out of the blue she raises up those hands and starts singing "Blessed be the name of the Lord, Blessed be the name of the Lord - my heart will choose to say ......... Blessed be Your name" - this is one of her favorite songs and I'm always amazed at her timing with this one .... definitely the Holy Spirit ...... that is what it all comes down to ...... are you gonna CHOOSE to praise Him, trust Him - no matter how you feel?

Ryan always gets to pick where he wants to eat after days like these - yesterday, Target Pizza Hut - :). And don't you dare think he didn't have an alternative motive with that choice either - we did let him pick out a toy for being so brave ....... he picked out some kind of Star Wars Transfomer ...... looks like we might be leaving the Power Rangers era behind :) .... woo hoo, you definitely won't hear me complaining about that!

Thanks so much for your prayers and we thank Him for His strength that keeps us going ..... Looking forward to giving you good news on Monday!!!!!!!!!